Tuesday 12 June 2007

What makes it worth it

I wake up at an ungodly hour cos he is screaming his lungs out. I look at the clock and see an hour I have never ever seen before. I curse and sigh and turn and pick him up. He looks up at me gives me that smile that melts my heart. My heart sings and I say to myself 'Anytime baby , will do this anytime just for you' ... Thats parenthood. Your life is turned upside down. Till the little bundle of joy lands on your lap, your life was perfect. Everything was planned, you had time for yourself. But there come this lil fella and everything is topsy turvy. Every second the lil someone is demanding your attention. He needs to be fed, needs nappy changed, needs to be comforted. But its that one look of utter love and pure innocence that makes it all worth it. Day starts at 6 (ie if it ever ended) with a tiny hand falling across my face, I turn and I see a tiny face peering at me trying to see if I am awake, I smile and wake up and then starts the rush ... change nappies, play with him, entertain him, take him to the park, sing to him , dance with him ....... There are times when I just want a break ... I sigh and think of all the leisure times I used to have .... and then I hear a tiny voice calling amma .... Once again my heart sings and I say 'Anytime baby , will do this anytime just for you'.. At the end of a long and tiring day I see him sleeping peacefully and I think God, what did I do before he was born ?

3 comments:

  1. stumbled upon ur blog... n couldnt help dropping a hi... so well said... the feelings, so nicely put... enjoyed reading it :)...

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  2. happened to see your blog...wonderful :)

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  3. You've expressed so many of the feelings of a working mom! The guilt when the baby is sick, the looks from the other office workers when you have to leave early for a doctor's appointment, the mutterings behind your back when something didn't get finished on time because you on the phone to the baby sitter.

    Hang in there gal...

    JeanieBee

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